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Legend for Consequences Suffered (CS):

  1. Inappropriate shame and guilt
  2. Childhood self-loathing
  3. Adulthood self-loathing
  4. Normalizing children to sexual questions by adult men. (Grooming)
  5. Sexual abuse. (Pedophilia)
  6. Impaired sexual relations after marriage.
  7. Years of recovery from childhood shaming.  Often lasting decades.
  8. Suicide Ideation
  9. Attempted Suicide
  10. Suicide of a loved one or friend.

#5 Aimee L. CS: 1,2,4,5,7,8,9

Hello, My name is Aimee. I was raised in the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, but after experiencing the molestation of a young girl who was very dear to me, I started to question the church. My mother who was born into the church as well was molested and raped by her…

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#4 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7

When I was age 11-15, I had different experiences with different bishops. I have never had the courage to say anything, and I also have never had a place where I can feel safe to talk about it. These men are part of my family’s community still to this day, and the encounters were so…

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#3 Name Hidden. CS: 2,3,6,7

I started to be sexually abused around age six by my brother.  Then when I was 12, I was gang raped by 5 grown men.  After the rape, my grandfather started to rape me as well as my brother. I am a recovered bulimic and in my 60’s.  I have been in counseling all my…

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#2 Name Hidden. CS: 1,3,4,6,10

I had just turned 12 years old, and was so excited to get my temple recommend to go and do baptisms for the dead. I remember it like it was yesterday. The bishop asked if I obeyed the law of chastity. I didn’t know what that was. He then went on to explain what it…

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#1 Name Hidden. CS: 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9. Other: It became very difficult to accept God the Father, even after becoming a Born Again Christian years later. I would use the term GOD but not Heavenly Father because Father was not so heavenly.

I have been a member of the Mormon Church for just over 23 years. I have never shared this story with anyone besides my counselor. I have always feared backlash from family or friends and even from the church. I share it here now because it is time. I want to heal and to move…

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